When someone you thought was a friend stabbed your back and spat in your face, your immediate reaction must be to hit back at that person isn't it?
Well, that was my first instinct on the night of May 5th. The Chinese community overwhelmingly rejected BN despite all the overtures made to them.
At that moment, I feel like telling all Chinese to go to hell for especially their betrayal of the moderate Malays.
But, I realized that I should not do that. I need to calm down and forgive them for betraying good Malay leaders such as Datuk Abdul Ghani Othman. who received less than 3 per cent of the Chinese votes in Gelang Patah.
I reminded myself that I am a Muslim, and my religion doesn't permit me to blindly hate others no matter how much hurt I have to endure.
But then, later on there were irritating statements issued by people like Lim Kit Siang about making Ghani a minister which made my blood boils again.
I find that statement by Kit Siang to be self-serving and insulting.
I have had enough of such treachery. I may be able to forgive but I will never forget what happened in Gelang Patah.
And today as I saw the Star front page, my anger went up several notches again.
It reads "We are Malaysia". Then there was a picture of smiling young Malaysians each holding a small Jalur Gemilang promoting "We are one people, one country".
On the MCA's own newspaper's page three, there were these headlines, "Stay positive, united (in red) and move on", "Radio deejays begin 'Kamilah Malaysia' campaign", and "Now is the time to look forward, MP tells M'sians".
Yes, these are the main headlines of the Star, the biggest English newspaper in the country which had subtly been assisting the Chinese-driven DAP campaign machinery over the years in undermining BN.
The Star had been hedging for a possible Pakatan's victory in GE13. Most of its editors and journalists are known Pakatan supporters and you can read about them at Helen Ang blog.
Only a fool of an analyst would not agree with that conclusion about the Star.
Now that its bet was lost with BN still in power, the Star editorial is going all out to cool down the racial temperature which was set alight by their sleeping partner, the cybertroopers outfit at Komtar.
Now that it is clear that the racial card had been thrown open for all to see and the betrayal was complete, they are trying to tell everyone not to get angry and that we are still brothers and sisters.
I feel sick thinking of that.
What they should instead do after stabbing and spitting on us is to let us be for a while to calm down.
Let us be for a while.
Do not come to us after committing such treachery saying "Hey, sorry ya. Don't be angry. We are still brothers and sisters."
For the editors and journalists of the Star, please don't be so condescending in your effort to appease the Malays.
Malays are not stupid, ok?
They may be nice people and are prone to easily forgive those who wronged them, but please don't push your luck with them.
Let them be on their own to heal the hurt of being betrayed by people they believed were their friends.
Don't inflame them some more, ok?
As for me, at this moment, if anyone comes to me and talk about muhibah and 1Malaysia, then he or she may likely get a flying kick in the face.
Ok, I need to rest and cool down now. This spasm of racial hatred really tires me.