It's draining for people like me.
I love Dr Mahathir but I don't hate Najib.
I don't believe Dr Mahathir is attacking Najib because he has a personal agenda other than that he wanted Malaysia to be safe.
However, I don't believe Najib stole the billions of ringgit either.
See...I'm split in the middle.
It's not about being spineless. I gain nothing either way the fight goes.
I'm just not sure who is right and who is wrong.
Both sides were not convincing enough for me.
I got friends and I also got people who treated me with disdain on both sides.
So, it's really difficult.
Okay, I don't like more people on Najib side than those on Dr Mahathir's side, but that was not good enough a reason for me to condemn the PM.
I have to be very sure before I condemn someone.
Otherwise my conscience won't be clear.
The only thing I'm really sure at the moment is that I don't want anyone to attack Dr Mahathir.
I love the old man for being cute and what he did for the country. However I'm not really his true blue die hard fan.
I never get invitations to his private buka puasa or Hari Raya functions.
Still, I can't stand without doing anything when the attack dogs started to bark and tried to bite him.
Dr Mahathir may not exactly be an angel but I think it's still wrong for them to try to destroy the 90-year-old man and deny his great contributions to this country.
Right or wrong, I have to defend him on that count.
Now it looks like the fight is going to the next level with allegations of conspiracy to destroy the country and such being bandied on these and that people.
Well, I'm bracing for a crackdown if any and the fall out later on.
I'm worried about the future of this country. That I cannot deny.
I hope Najib doesn't have to resort to such drastic measures.
He is after all among the last of Umno moderate leaders who were mostly decimated by the Chinese tsunami of 2013.
Hopefully he continues being so and be more clever to do the right thing.
Okay...just wanted to get all that out of my chest.
Now a little music for the night....
(Note: That is my friend Ai's favorite song. In case blogger shuzheng is reading this, the posting by Ai which he referred to in his A Room of One’s Own is this, Year One. Ai posted it a few hours before Sept 20, 2012 which was the first anniversary of the BIGCAT blog. She didn't make up the story and that picture of the mattress on the floor where she slept is really in her room at that time. I have been in that room.)