He said based on my writings these days, I'm not my usual self anymore.
I'm too serious, he said.
In fact, he said I'm more serious these days compared to before I started writing in this blog.
"You used to be a more fun person. Now, you are just too serious that if I don't know you, I might be a bit scared of you," he said.
I guess he is right about part of it. I do tend to take things more seriously these days. But I don't think it's because of writing in this blog.
I think it's the other way around. The problem is me, and not this blog.
I know I'm becoming less easy going these days. Maybe because I'm getting older or maybe because things that happened around me of late have turned me into a more skeptical person.
In the first place, I had not intended this blog to be a serious sopo blog. My postings are mostly just my spontaneous reactions to events or things which I came across in the cyberspace or happenings around me.
I hardly plan or do in-depth research whenever I feel like posting anything.
For instance, when I decided to support Mukhriz Mahathir, it was just because I think he is the only logical choice to lead a new generation of Umno leaders. It's basically just my gut feeling. I never claim it to be otherwise. I'm indeed not some super duper political analyst or writer.
It may be hard for you to believe, but I never even think of supporting Mukhriz because he is the son of Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad.
Mukhriz doesn't even know who I am and likely doesn't even know of my support for him. I'm also not likely to directly benefit from my support for him.
It was the same when I supported Datuk Abdul Ghani Othman before his retirement from politics.
I support these guys simply because I think that they are good fellas. Nothing more, nothing less. My conscience is clear as far as my support for them is concerned.
As I had explained earlier, I don't really plan what I'm going to write. I just write according to how I feel about things.
This posting, for instence, clearly doesn't have a proper agenda. I just started writing it because I feel like doing so. Whatever which comes out from my mind, I just let it flow on to this page.
I never planned how it will come out or even how the ending will be.
I did most of my previous postings like this.
It's just the way I am these days.
Okay, enough lah....I'm starting to feel sleepy. It is past midnight already.
BTW, I'm missing someone tonight. Probably that's why I'm writing aimlessly in this posting so that I could just bury that pathetic thought. It's pathetic to miss someone who doesn't really give a shit about how we feel.
I know, stupid me.
Well, never mind.
Eh, here is some nice music instead,