I smoked three sticks of them in succession just now.
I have not been smoking for quite a long time.
Well, I don't really inhale the smoke. It hurts my lungs. I just puffed at them.
I actually just wanted to do something familiar when I'm upset or depressed.
Earlier, I had watched the movie "Her" at Tropicana City Mall and got very depressed.
I felt so sad for the main character of the movie.
His wife left him because she had moved up in the world and finds him not up to her standard.
Then he fell in love with the artificial intelligence of his phone, but the bloody thing also in the end left him because it feels that it has attained a higher level of intellect.
I was like, what a pathetic piece of shit life this man was going through.
At the end of the movie, the guy went on top of his apartment and sat there looking like such a pathetic miserable loser.
How I wished he had just jumped off the roof and end the whole bloody charade.
At least that way the movie ends more dramatically.
Oh, and I also wished his friend who was with him on top of the roof jumped with him. Such a selfish bitch who dumped her husband because she just got bored with him and wanted to have other kind of fun in her life. The poor pathetic husband ended up being a Buddhist monk and took a vow of silence for half a year because of all the shit.
I mean, come on la, don't go around telling someone that you love him/her for the rest of your life and then later after that someone had committed his/her life to the relationship, you go and say : Oooopppsss....it's not what I meant. I don't really love you, okay. Sorry, but I need to move forward and you are not part of my plan. Bye.
That's fucking cruel, okay.
That's the shit the guy in the movie got from his wife and later from his bloody handphone.
The movie got great excuses for such shitty behavior though. It justifies the act of ripping out the heart of someone who you once said you love, who had in return gave his/her whole life to you and still loves you.
I think Nurul Izzah, and those such as her would like this movie.
For more info on the movie : Her
Okay, I need to chill now.
Turning on the music and trying to sleep now.