Received news that a friend was dying of cancer last night.
I felt a deep sense of sadness but was not very sure how to react.
In the end, I just prayed something like this;
"Dear Allah, please make it easy for my friend. He is not a Muslim but please don't make him go to hell just because of that. He is a good guy despite that."
I admit that I'm not an Islamic religious expert and not sure if it was okay for me to recite such a doa.
The highest formal Islamic education that I had was when I studied up to Darjah Lima at a Sekolah Agama Johor.
That was when I was still in primary school.
But really, I don't want my friend to go to hell.
He is a Chinese and I believe that he doesn't have a religion.
The religious teachers told me that all non-Muslims go to hell after they died, but I find it hard to accept that because my friend is a good guy and never really harmed anyone.
I think I even sinned more than him, okay.
I really hope Allah will be merciful with him.
The last time I was at the deathbed of someone was about three years ago.
My uncle was at that time dying of cancer too.
I remember hugging him for a long while as he lay on the hospital bed.
At that time I whispered to him something like this to comfort him,
"Please don't worry about anything. Just remember Allah and pray to Him. Everyone loves you. See, we are all here with you. You are a good person and there's nothing for you to worry."
My uncle then recited the AlFatihah in a whisper and thanked me.
That's the last time I was with him.
Actually, I'm writing this to remind myself more than anyone else that life is short and that I should not waste it on unnecessary things despite them seemingly being so important at the moment.
One day, maybe not too long from now, I will die too.
I wish that when it's time for me to go, I will have a clear conscience on how I conducted myself on this earth and that my life is filled with love more than anything else.
I don't want to die while still hating someone or possessing things that rightly belongs to someone else or something like those.
Hopefully Allah will be merciful with me and allows me to have that.
I don't know about you all, but that's how I wish it will be for myself.
Okay lah, enough of me pouring my heart out.
Sorry, if any of you thinks it's a waste of time reading this post.
Take care and have a nice day, okay.