Last day of my long leave. Going back to KL later this afternoon.
I have refrained from writing while on this leave because I need to focus on settling some personal matters.
Alhamdulillah, they were mostly settled now.
As to what had been happening the past week, I think things were not so bad. Of course they were not so good either.
Well, no one is yet to kill someone for stupid reasons here in Malaysia, which is good, at least in my opinion. That's despite the country getting messed up quite a bit of late.
But honestly, I have nothing to be cheerful about at the moment.
For instance, I didn't really wish anyone a happy new year that day because I don't think 2020 is going to be a happy year.
So many shits are bound to hit the fan as the year progresses, in my opinion.
For one thing, the Mahathir-Anwar power transition issue is expected to come to boil in May.
That alone is a cause of anxiety for many as the economy will suffer from the uncertainty, much like it was throughout last year.
Investors are not really keen to invest in a country clouded in anxiety and uncertainty, okay.
I also don't see any concrete move by the government so far to make things better for the common people.
The Cabinet is still full of incompetent people. Some are outright stupid and divisive.
Some cheered the departure of that Maszlee guy from the Education Ministry saying that it's a sign that the government is trying to improve itself.
But I think that's not true.
It's just politics, actually.
Some in DAP are even claiming credit for it to appease the rebellious Chinese who now support the community's educationists who are at odd with the current government.
Personally, I think there are others in the Cabinet who should leave ahead of Maszlee because they are worse than that guy. Waytha Moorthy is one of them.
Let's just wait for the resignation of other useless ministers from Pakatan parties other than Dr Mahathir's Pribumi Bersatu.
If that happened, then maybe I'm wrong about the Pakatan government being a rubbish government.
But till then, I rather have a pessimistic look at things this year because of the rubbish government.
Well, that does not however mean I'm not going to do something to improve things, at least at my personal level.
I need to focus more at improving myself, for one thing.
No point in me trying to correct big things, like changing the rubbish government that we have now while I can't keep my own personal things in order.
First, I need to clean up my room once I get back in KL later today.
It's in a mess when I left it to go on this long leave the other day.
Then, I also need to do better at work.
Need to do more to motivate myself.
I also need to practice better for the sport that I took up.
Set a proper achievable goal for it.
Yup, I need to do that sort of things correct first. Among other things.
As for this blog, I think I need to get back to basics.
I wrote several years back that I treat this blog more as a personal diary of my thoughts on things that happened around me.
It still is.
I didn't even try to make it popular or force people to read it.
For one thing, I didn't try to promote it on other social media platforms like Facebook or Tweeter.
I don't even have any active account of those.
I'm actually very uncomfortable with the idea of forcing my thoughts on other people.
People who wanted to read my thoughts really have to come to this blog to do so at their own choice.
I know, it's old fashion in this age of social media, but that's just the way I am.
Oh, by the way, I also want to repeat what I wrote before that I don't want to be famous or respected and such.
That's because I find all that very tiring.
By the way, I have quite a manageable level of ego, so I don't really care about what people think of my writings.
Well, that's all for this first post of 2020.
I need to pack up now before going back to KL.
I wish I don't have to go back there, but I need to keep my job and earn a living.
Need to remember that as this year progresses.....no matter what shit happens, life still needs to go on.
And I will persevere, insyaAllah.