It's now 4.54am as I start writing this.
Just woken up and can't go back to sleep.
I'm at my mother's family home in Kluang for Qingming.
Drove down yesterday evening with my mother and a grand uncle.
If you are wondering why I am here for Qingming, please read this post which I wrote a year ago,
Ya, it's the annual family thing.
Almost everyone were here including my cousins from Singapore.
Normally I'm very happy to be at this gathering, but this time my heart felt very heavy over what have been happening of late.
Just before I left office yesterday evening to pick up my mother and grand uncle, a colleague told me about a meeting between former PM Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad and a group of top bloggers.
My colleague who is a kind and handsome young chap was quite excited over it. He said he saw something about it on Facebook.
I was quite curious but can't do any checking there and then as I was rushing to go back to Kluang.
When I reached Kluang at almost midnight, I did check on it but only found a bit of information.
But it was enough to convince me that I was right when I wrote my last posting,
Quick gun Mahathir
Dr Mahathir was really going to "gun down" PM DS Najib Razak or the other way around.
This is a bit of recording at Helen's blog which suggested that's now the case,
Video – Tun: “Umno dah pecah dah”
My worst fear seems going to happen as what I wrote about three months ago,
Umno will not survive a civil war
Bear in mind that, I actually wrote that in support of Najib.
Honestly, I still wish I can tell Dr Mahathir and those who support him to back down and let the PM and his people have their ways.
Unity is very important.
But I can't do that anymore.
Let me explain.
Regular readers of this blog should know that I'm actually quite pro-Najib.
You can check my record on it from the first day I started this blog.
In fact I have been supportive of Najib way before that.
I have been supportive of the PM much earlier than many of the PM's current "generals" who were back then no where to be seen with him. Some were then even working for "foreign enemies".
However, things that happened of late convinced me that there were too many bad people and "mercenaries" around the PM that a clean up at the risk of Umno's future was necessary.
These bad people gave Najib very bad advices, and most of the time they did so because they want to benefit from the whole thing.
Some of the things done by these bad people even directly victimized Najib's own real supporters, forcing them to turn against him.
That's why there are now so many people who are actually pro-establishment but unhappy with what's been happening in the country.
Just have a look at the little week-long poll (on the top right corner of this page, unless you are reading this using your smart phone), which I started a few days ago on how readers of this blog are going to vote in the next general election, less than three years from now if the status quo remains.
It doesn't look very good for BN so far.
Bear in mind that this blog is pro-establishment and therefore I believe the majority of its readers are also of the pro-establishment type.
With three days left to go before the poll closes, I don't think its end results will be much different than what it is now, with more than half of those taking part saying they will refrain from voting.
Well, never mind....let Umno people figure it out.
Seriously, I still like Najib. He is a kind man.
But as I had previously said, I am out of the equation and now just a bystander or at most an observer.
Really, it's the Najib's people themselves who recently forced me not to lend my little insignificant help to their boss.
I am just obliging.
Orang dah tak suka, kita pegi je lah...something like that.
Eh, I can hear the Suboh azan now from a nearby surau....
Need to do the necessary.
Going to the graves with my family later on.
You all have a nice weekend, ya.