No need to quarrel, Allah will provide

I don't like fighting, arguing or even debating.

Really.

In fact, I don't even enjoy winning them.

Normally, I just say what's my opinion is, and that's about it.

I would hardly try to make others agree with me.

If they want to stick with their opinions, no matter how wrong they were, I would just shrug and walk away.

I don't even really talk much as a person, especially so, when I'm among people who are not my close friends.

Why should I, right?

Most of the time, I don't even try to defend what's mine. Especially when I felt that it's not really worth defending.

What? You want me to quit my job? Okay, I'll go find another source of income. Allah will provide for me,.

That was more or less what I said when my former boss and colleagues wanted to push me around in my previous work place.

I loved my job at that time but I just tendered my resignation without saying much.

Really not worth fighting over it as they would just make it impossible for me to do my work by dragging me into their office politics.

Some of my former colleagues told stories about me throwing tantrums and stuff at that time which were all not true.

I walked out of that place where I worked for many years very quietly. Definitely no farewell party.

I still bumped into my former boss and colleagues from time to time and I believe I behaved properly with them.

After all, I have known them for many years. 

I actually don't even hate them.

It's just that I told myself those people are not my friends and they are not good people for what they did to me.

That's about it, and the rest I leave to Allah.

But of course I don't go have a drink and friendly chit chats with them like the good old days lah.

Well, I'm still like that today.

Rather than quarrelling, I'll just walk away once I feel that it's not worth the effort to do so.

My tolerance for nonsense has never been really good, anyway.

Back in 2018, when BN lost to Pakatan, I told my celebrating former schoolmates to get ready for the mess to come.

They laugh at me saying that I was just being sour grapes.

I stopped saying anything after that.

Well, we know now what happened after that.

It's still messy until today.

Hopefully, things will get better sooner or later.

For now, I'm just trying to survive this pandemic.

If I lose my job again, I think I will try to open a burger stall. 

Hopefully the pandemic will be over by then and people are allowed to buy burgers from me. 

I really only need just enough to provide for my responsibilities.

Really, that's all I'm hoping for.

What ever it is, insyaAllah, things will be okay.